I am terrible at this "keeping up a blog" thing. I really struggle, but it's fine. Because this blog is only for me really. I started it for me and I use it when I need it and I guess that is all that matters.
So the point of this post is to remove all these feels I am having right now. This summer I participated in a community theatre production of Aida. I loved the show, but more than that I loved the people I met and became close with. Specifically Mary Nelson and Jonathan Baker. Our friendship was immediately strong and close. In fact we love each other all so much that we spent 13 hours together yesterday. 13 hours that, had we not needed sleep, could very well have stretched into days. Now that the strength of this relationship has been established I can get into what it is doing to me and my emotions.
Jonathan is leaving tomorrow morning for a five month trip to teach English. Because he is adventurous and exciting like that. A five month trip that is causing me to feel all the feels. Now, I know what you are saying. "Dilee has been gone for a whole year. You can handle five months. Get over yourself." Well let me mention that those five months are to be spent IN CHINA. Dilee was in the United States. With a cell phone and the ability to fly home for visits. Jonathan is going to be in CHINA. See. Told ya. Not so easy to get over. And while I have been telling myself that it is fine, that I won't lose all contact with him and I will be busy with Avenue Q and school, I can't help but feel sad at his departure.
It's funny how that happens. How quickly you can attach yourself to another person so strongly. It is very similar to when Matt and I became friends (oh, Music Man) Or better yet, when Chase and I became friends (oh, Pride and Prejudice). I have had many friends that I have been close with. But that closeness grew over time and became strong through years of interaction. And those friendships haven't lasted. These friendships, with Matt and Chase and Dilee and Mary and Jonathan, these friendships that hit me like a train and dragged me with them, these friendships that made me feel safe and loved in mere moments, these are the friendships that are going to last my entire life. I hope all of them feel the same way, because they are not getting rid of me even if they want to.
That's all. This may have been a dreadful experience for you, but I feel less of the feels I was feeling before I wrote this post so that is good.
Matt, Chase, Dilee, Mary, and Jonathan I love you all very much. Thank you all for choosing me. Jonathan, despite the feels I am having right now I am so amazed by you and I am so proud of you. I look up to you a lot and I can't wait for you to get home.
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